Personal Search

I woke up sad , i was thinking too much about everything and ended overloading my self.
Anyway i stopped for a second and put some El Dommo on. This song reminds me of my personal search for myself.

In today world we have all kind of pressure by media, society, friends, to be or become something, someone that we are really not. Sometimes i felt embarrassed or guilty of the person i am and tried acting in some way. But nobody is perfect and to learn to accept and embrace and not to be embarrassed by your imperfections is true courage.

People are different people are strange, and if you are different, have different interests and tastes, ways of thinking you get judged. They will try to convert you to their way of thinking or if you do not want to change your way of thought they will throw rocks at you, well maybe they will not do that but in some way you will find yourself alone.

While i was in college (which i quit, maybe ill write about that in other post) i always got comments like "whats that garbage of music you are listening to","nobody listens that", "what kind of garbage music you are playing", "haha your music is for sleeping and meditation".

Well first, quality of music is not determined by the number of views or number of listeners, popularity is determined by the number of views and if you ask me a simple fart sound could get over million views on you tube if you have money to promote it on tv, radio commercials, internet ads etc. There are tons of music out there which is of great quality but the producers, bands, composers don't have the money to promote it, and they stay lost and forgotten in time and space until some persons which know what quality music is upload them on youtube or other online webpage so that other persons like me could enjoy the hidden music gems as i call them.

And about the stuff i am playing and trying to create, it's my music i may play whatever i want for myself. If you don't like it, turn off your speakers, unplug your headphones, don't bother to open link to listen my music.

They called Jimi Hendrix music electric church music, but it rocked the whole world and put some new fundamental ways to create music. He didn't only created music, he changed the world, and after that something went really wrong, and here we are in year where everything is commercialized including the music. Where the artistic style of creating music is dead, the uniqueness. I am trying to make something new even if that is meditation music full with cracks buzzes clicks and other noises those cracks buzzes clicks and other noises where created by me. ....ill try to stay me.